It's been awhile since my last post and it seems as though a lot has changed. Although I continue to count my blessings. Among the changes include Aiden starting preschool today (I'll get to that in a bit), and finding a new nanny to watch the boys. Nathen continues to work out of state in Missouri, however that job is quickly (thankfully) coming to a close, he'll be done with by September 14th. After that he will either go to Ft. Riley or Oklahoma, please pray that he goes to Ft. Riley..he'd be home every night by 6 (I think).Its been difficult being a single parent during the week but the past 2 months have gone by very quickly probably mostly due to the help that family and friends have given to me...thanks I really appreciate it, as does Nathen. We were blessed to find another Christian girl to care for our boys while I'm at work. She just started this week, and Evan has really warmed up to her quickly, Aiden enjoys her but is kind of going through a mommy phase right now, so was pretty upset yesterday after waking up from nap--but when I got home was as happy as could be. Today was Aiden's first day of preschool, and it did not go as I had expected. I expected to drop him off as we do every week for Sunday school with him running towards the toys, and saying bye bye mommy. The classroom is the same one as he goes to on Sunday morning and one of the teachers is his Sunday school teacher so I was really caught by surprise when he began screaming and crying for me when I dropped him off. As I said I think he's going through a bit of a phase needing me more, poor little guy doesn't get any one on one time with me now that Evan is down to 1 nap. Although he was upset after I left, he had calmed down some once I held him for awhile. And being the concerned(albiet probably annoying parent) that I am I called his teacher 30 minutes after I left and she said he had calmed down and was doing just fine. When I picked him up and asked him if he had fun he said "YES". So I think his response today and yesterday when he woke up from nap was his way of telling me "Mommy I miss you". Okay that brings tears to my eyes, but I really think its true. As I mentioned Evan is down to 1 nap, and Aiden usually always takes longer naps than Evan does, so Evan gets at least 1-2 hours a day of just mommy time, whereas Aiden doesn't get any. Of course Evan is at an age where he can't be left alone when he's awake, but what I can do is incorporate more QUALITY time with Aiden when I'm with both of the boys. Of course not denying Evan the attention he deserves, for example tonight at bedtime I rocked both of them on my lap while reading stories, usually Aiden is in his bed. And while we went on a walk this evening, I let Aiden out of the stroller for awhile and he held my hand while we walked.
Its hard as a mother finding enough QUALITY time with each child, I have no idea how parents do it with many children, but I'm sure they figure it out just as I did this evening. And reflecting back on my childhood being the middle of 3 I never felt like I was getting less attention or QUALITY time with my parents. So that is one major change I'm making is spending more QUALITY time with both my little guys because before I know it I will no longer be cool to them (I'm really not cool anyway, but they don't know that yet:).
